First Day

Well. The first day of my senior year at school went through without a hitch. I wasn't even late to class! AND I only had one class! YES. Well, technically I have 3. But one is online (and we didn't even really have it), and the other one I just added today.

So today, my only class was chemistry. And before I walked in, I said a little prayer and asked for cute single boys in my class. So I sit down, and I watch everyone file in. And lo and behold, all these cute boys are walking in! Better yet, they're single! Well. Most of them. Ha. So I can stare at them all day long and not even feel bad! YES. Chemistry is GOOOOOOD. For now.

Also, I saw my lovely friend Jeanette today. She's an angel. I'm so happy she came over! I haven't seen her in so so long! It was really nice to catch up with her.

I watched HOUSE today. Suchhh a good show. I've missed it. I spend my whole summer watching BONES because I'd always miss HOUSE. So now I think it might be the opposite. We'll see. Anyway, there really wasn't much else to do today because it was POURING rain outside (hail and all!) and I don't have any homework yet. So I just sat and watched tv. And cleaned my room.

Today was the first real game of football season. YES! I'm so stoked. I have my fantasy team alllll ready. I rooted for the Saints tonight. Felt good. Especially since they won! (in your face you Vikings fans!) I wanted to throw a mini party, but I felt like no one knew/cared about it. So it didn't happen. But Melanie had some friends come over and watch it with us. Which is cool, since they are cool.

So yeah. I think this semester will go over well. I've decided to be optimistic. I think it'll guarantee more success than what my previous attitude was... Anyway, I'm off to bed. I have 745 class. Yessssss....

School Starts TOMORROW!

Back to the grind again. I really don't want tomorrow to come honestly, because that means summer is really over. I'm sort of excited, but sort of not. Mostly not because I'm already stressed, and I am retaking chemistry. My ultimate nemesis. I'm determined to beat it this time though. I don't really have a choice, but I am sure I can do it (cross your fingers for me though in the mean time! haha).

Also, I changed my cluster (for those of you that don't know, it's half a minor) to recreation management. The only classes I have left are super tough, so I MUST have play time. Which will include, over the course of three semesters, fly fishing or rafting or survival skills or something else along those lines. My other cluster is psychology. Which will also be fun, but also hard so it obviously won't be very recreational. Ha.

I think the best part about school starting again is the fact that I only have 3 semesters left before I graduate! Which is AWESOME. (Again, cross your fingers!) My plans after? Who knows. I want to travel reallllly bad. But you need money for that. And I really wanna move to Colorado because I love it so much there, so that's probably what will happen. I'll make some money, travel and spend it all, then jump into grad school. THEN I'll be an amazing physical therapist and all my schooling will have paid off! YES!

Until then, I'll take this semester day by day, and hopefully update you sometimes along the way. (that sentence totally rhymes! Ha!)

Summer.

This summer will forever live in infamy.

I've been pretty non-existent this summer as far as my blog goes. I apologize for that. This summer has had quite the roller coaster of events and emotions, and along the way I've developed everlasting relationships that have helped continue to shape me into a better me.

So! Here's a quick recap on things I did, and things I learned about myself:

• I dated Garrett. Who was such a great guy. Smart (very!), funny, sweet, charming... etc. It didn't work out. We just didn't have enough time to spend together, but we're still good friends!
• I dated Joseph. He's dumb. That's all that needs to be said.
• I worked at Glenwood Caverns Adventure Park for the 3rd summer in a row. This mayyyy have been the best summer yet. Probably because it was the longest period of time that I worked there, but also because Melanie came and worked there also. AND because the relationships I had already made in the past grew stronger, and I made even more great friends to have and to hold in the future! Ha.
• I went tubing. Which was pretty epic! Except the last time I went, I almost died. Which was really scary. My parents still don't know about that one. Haha.
• I got put on academic suspension! Ah! I know. It was intense. And frustrating. I was told I failed my internship. I did turn in some things late, but I finished everything and worked really hard. Needless to say, I am no longer on suspension. My grade was changed and I am still returning to BYUI in the fall.
• I was (and still am) in a fantasy baseball league. My team rocks, and I went from being 10th out of 10, to 5th out of 10. Ohhhh yeah. (It's because I have Pujols on my team)
• I decided I'm going to travel as soon as I'm done with my bachelor's. I made a lot of friends from other countries this summer, and it really inspired me to travel. Also, I have a friend named Megan, who is from Liverpool (if you don't know where that is, look it up!) and I told her I would move there. Thennnn from there, I'm going to travel. Wherever I want.
• I thought I was recovering quite well from being a shopaholic. Quite the contrary. I still am one, and I just found a couple new shopping buddies: Ebay and DODtracker.com TROUBLE!
• I got realllllly into these 3 things: stumbleupon.com, tumblr.com, and longboarding. Okay maybe the last one I didn't get reallllly into, but I love it enough to buy a longboard on ebay! 
• I am more than ever excited to finish school. I loved my internship so so much and it made me want to be a therapist that much more! Which is so calming and reassuring and every other positive adjective in this world!
• I really want to move to Colorado.
• I realize more and more I am still learning and growing more into me, no matter what my age is. I will forever be changing. Because that's what life does.
• I do not have a "type". I thought I would normally go for older guys, or sports guys, or whatever. But I fell for an 18 year old (who already had a gf!) who had just graduated from high school. Whoa. I know. (for a while, my nickname at work was "cougar".)
• I have too much stuff. I'm working on selling some of it. Maybe.
• I have an addiction to diet pepsi. I've tried to break that, but I've accepted it, and I'm more at peace with myself now.
• I realllllly want to be healthier. I feel so gross like every day! I hope when I get to school (and maybe get a job!) that I can start buying healthier foods and working out more often.

Overall, summer is/was just amazing. I loved every minute. The good and the bad. I'm a better person for everything that happened this summer. I'm sad it's coming to a close, but I know that the next chapter of my life will be just as good, if not better. :)

Nobody likes you when you're 23...

I think Blink 182 is wrong because so far, being 23 has been amazing. I mean, it's only been 5 days out, but let's be honest--I've pretty much gotten everything I asked for and I got to spend my birthday with a pretty special person (it would've been 2 special persons if Melanie could've come back!).

I know most of you are wondering what I did for my birthday, soooo... I will tell you. :)

I. went to Utah. Provo to be exact. I saw some old friends--Carly. Nate. Javin. Jc. Marcus. Josh. Joel. Brian. Chelsey.

Met some new friends--Mike. Joe. Austin. I think that's it. 

But mostly. I just spent all my time with Joseph. Basically every waking hour. And then some. And right now, he is the cheese to my macaroni. No lie. I miss him a lot and I hope we see each other again soon.

(I'm not really one to divulge information on things like this so if you have questions about it, feel free to email me. But the short of it is I'm kinda crazy about this kid.)

I decided for my birthday that I was going to copy Melanie and post a picture a day on my blog, but I have thus far failed, so I will probably just start it another day. Maybe.

My aunt and uncle are moving. I'm really happy for them, but I really will miss them over the summer because I love them so much. I don't think they know how much, because I'm never at their house (which is in fact where I'm supposed to be staying for the time being), and I really feel pretty bad about it. They mean so much to me, and I don't think they realize what great examples they are to me. or why they are such great examples to me. I hope that up until they leave, that we'll be able to do more things together and grow closer.

I'm going to start reading "The Miracle of Forgiveness" tonight. I hear it's pretty intense. I'm hoping to gain a lot from this book. Wish me luck.

Also. As I progress through my internship, I'm realizing that I lovelovelove therapy more and more, and what exactly I want to specialize in and what kind of atmosphere I want to work in. It's also an on-going battle between whether or not I want to do physical or occupational therapy. Because I actually shadow both. It's kind of a joke, too, with the people I work with every day--they always ask "So what are you leaning towards, today?" Truth is, I really still don't know. But there are a few amazing therapists who have really influenced me so far, and I seriously cannot wait to go to grad school. Let's just hope I get in! Ha.

I'm a little embarrassed...

I kind of had a breakdown the other night, which was followed by a post that I'm not too proud of.. Haha. I'm not crazy I swear, and everything is fine now. Just one of those nights I suppose. And I am a girl, so it's almost to be expected.

My internship is going reallllly well and I'm so so happy about it. I know I made the right decision because I would not be having the same experience anywhere else. The people I shadow/intern for are amazing and they teach me so much. I am working with Physical Therapists AND Occupational Therapists and it's really swaying my decision for school. I still am leaning towards PT, but OT is more and more present in my mind. Which is fine, because either way I still have grad school to consider. It's really incredible work though, and I know this is exactly the career I should be in--therapy. It's beyond phenomenal.

I started working at the Caverns again. So fun. I really have loved that job every year I've worked there. They're so good to me! My boss is even nice enough to let me have the weekend off for my birthday! What an angel. They built a new swing up there and it is huge! Oh my heavens. I can't wait to be able to test it out or whatever. Supposedly it goes almost 180 degrees! Ah!

I miss my friend Melanie and I really want her to come back to the States. I hope she does soon. And maybe she can come to Colorado and live and work with me. We'd have so much fun and she'd still be close to her man.

3 things I really want for my birthday:
1. A Vintage Phoenix Suns Shirt (or a Cardinals Jersey!)
2. A New Hairstyle (I have no idea what though, so any suggestions would be awesome!)
3. All my bills PAID IN FULL (not likely, but hey. A girl can dream!)

I have something to say.

Why are relationships so hard and confusing? Every time I get in one, or even think about getting in one, I end up freaking out and not liking it. Isn't it just easier to be single? I think I've forgotten what it's like to actually work hard in a relationship and pull my own weight and do my part to make it work. How do you do it? I can dish out all this advice to all my friends but when it comes to actually stepping up and taking my own advice, I can't do it. I don't know where to draw the line. What's too much? What's too little? I'm too afraid to try because I don't wanna screw it up! I feel a tiny bit pathetic, but it's the truth! What do I do? I don't wanna get crazy jealous over anything or say the wrong thing when I'm being honest. I just don't know. And when  is he supposed to do work? Ugh. It's so frustrating. And. How do you even break up with people? Or discuss something serious? I've been a player for so long I feel like don't even know how to do things right. I've been thinking about this a lot lately, and I think I'll be okay, I'm just having like a mini breakdown or something. One day at a time, right?

I'm going to Utah for my birthday. Fact. And I can't wait. 9 days. 

Goats and Pez Candy

Okay so the title is a little strange, I know. But read on, and you'll understand why.

At one point in the past six months or so, I owned 3 snowboards. One was really just for decoration because I never rode it, and it was too short for me anyway. So I sold it. Now I am down to two.

I recently decided to sell the love of my life: my Burton Feelgood. I bought this board at High-Five-O for less than cost (aka instead of it being $500 bucks, I got it for 240ish). Sweet deal, I know. But, I have another love: my Flow Myriad. I have had that board longer, and its kind of like a marriage to me. My relationship (yes I have a relationship with an inanimate object) is more everlasting with the Myriad. The Feelgood is like an affair, I suppose. Anyway, I can't bring myself to sell the Myriad because I feel I would be being unfaithful in a sense. So I posted an ad on my school's website--2006 Burton Feelgood. Chick board... blah blah.

(My Feelgood is white by the way. Not black. And my Myriad is pink one.)

So it's been approximately a week since I posted that ad. I have gotten one email about it, and the girl wanted pictures. 

The other day, I got a text from a random phone number. Before I read it, I thought to myself "Ooo, maybe this is for my snowboard!". False. I opened the text and it read something like this, "Does the pez dispenser come with pez?". So then I thought one of my friends was texting me some stupid joke. I asked who it was, and they responded saying they were inquiring about an ad I had posted concerning pez dispensers. I apologized and said I owned no pez or pez dispensers. So weird.

Last night, I got a couple phone calls from a random Utah number. She left a voicemail, but it cut in and out so I didn't know what she wanted for sure, but I figured it was about my board because she started out saying, "Hi I was inquiring about...". K, so I called her back later, and she says, "I was calling about the goat you have for sale?" A goat?? What the junk! So again. I apologize. I have no goat, miss. I have a snowboard though! If you want one of those... Negative. 

So. SOMEONE out there is playing a joke on me. I swear. Craig's list, maybe? I should've asked those people where they saw my "ad". I'm so confused. I have no idea who could be doing this. I mean, goats and pez? For real? I must say, it's very clever. I commend whoever it is. But seriously. Fess up, K? Haha.