reno

6 months since my last post! ah! sorry folks. all 8 readers i have. hope you haven't been too disappointed! i'll see what i can do about updating you on my life since september. it probably will be in segments. we'll see.

anyway, i moved to reno about 2 months ago. pretty crazy, right? yeah sometimes i think that, too. but so far it's been a real adventure. annnd everyone always asks why i moved here so before you even start, i moved here for a guy. the same guy you can read about in my post on 11/16/2010. i'm a pretty lucky gal to have such a great guy worth moving for. i guess i'm also lucky i don't get attached to places i live. something i probably picked up in college? since i moved around so much during that time.

so back to reno. i couldn't find a job for what seemed like forever. and not having friends? oh. my. hell. probably the hardest part about moving here. forget not having a job. not having friends is the worst. luckily i finally started working. part time at sports authority, and full time at the atlantis hotel casino. i recently quit sports authority though because the people there (minus a small handful) were absolutely horrible. they were condescending, rude, ridiculing, complaining jerks. i hated every moment i was at that place. so needless to say, i'm done with that company forever. i work in the spa at the atlantis though, and i really enjoy it. mostly because i feel like i've finally made friends. not to mention it's a freaking spa!

so now that i got those two problems out of the way, i feel like i'm getting to a really happy place now. whereas before, it was honestly really questionable. it's a true testament of how stability and friendship can really affect how you feel day to day. and moving to a strange city is just an added bonus to that ha!

well, i think that's it for now because i'm getting really distracted and this post has already taken long enough to type.

happy friday the 13th!

rules

I used to make silly rules for me to follow in emergencies or when certain conditions just called for rules. Over the past few months though (maybe even years) I let go of all those rules. I feel like I sort of let my guard down because of it though, so I'm making new rules as well as reinforcing previous rules (which will have one of these "*" beside them). They will be enforced as soon as possible. Here are some I'm adding to my list:

1. No long-distance relationships. EVER.  *
2. No dating anyone who is younger than I am.
3. No dating anyone who is related to any of my closest friends (unless given permission first).
4. No more being a "rescuer". (this rule can be ignored in case of emergencies)
5. Always put myself first. (in the most unselfish way possible, of course)

That's what I have so far. They're very important to me. There will be no exceptions made unless I feel it is in my best interest (see rule #5). 

Also, I was invited to join pinterest! (Told you Abby!) So naturally, I accepted the invitation. Check out my pinboard! There's not much there yet, but in a few days I'm sure I'll have tons. 

I have something to say.

Why are relationships so hard and confusing? Every time I get in one, or even think about getting in one, I end up freaking out and not liking it. Isn't it just easier to be single? I think I've forgotten what it's like to actually work hard in a relationship and pull my own weight and do my part to make it work. How do you do it? I can dish out all this advice to all my friends but when it comes to actually stepping up and taking my own advice, I can't do it. I don't know where to draw the line. What's too much? What's too little? I'm too afraid to try because I don't wanna screw it up! I feel a tiny bit pathetic, but it's the truth! What do I do? I don't wanna get crazy jealous over anything or say the wrong thing when I'm being honest. I just don't know. And when  is he supposed to do work? Ugh. It's so frustrating. And. How do you even break up with people? Or discuss something serious? I've been a player for so long I feel like don't even know how to do things right. I've been thinking about this a lot lately, and I think I'll be okay, I'm just having like a mini breakdown or something. One day at a time, right?

I'm going to Utah for my birthday. Fact. And I can't wait. 9 days.