tomfoolery

so for whatever reason, i've become temporarily depressed. and completely bored with everything. i don't know why. maybe it's because of the lack of summer during this supposed summer month. maybe it's because i miss having my brothers around. whatever it is, i need to change things. and with all the crazy assassin spy stealth movies and tv shows i've seen lately, i've found just the cure for this case of the blues. at least i hope it will be a cure.

 i'm starting a prank war. with my brother's old roommates. i just really need something to do. i don't have money for crafts, or anything else for that matter, and having a paintball assassin game is sort of a lost hope at this point, so maybe a prank war is the next best thing. me and my roommates came up with a few good ones. we're going to start small and throw in a few big ones as time goes on. it might not even work, but it'll be fun to try.

if it works out the way i want, i'll keep you posted. haha. :)

sun-kissed faces.

I was looking at some photos today from summa time and it makes me really anxious and excited for SUMMER!


Here are some of my favorite things about summer :)

road trips!

bike rides

ferris wheels 

amusement parks

fireworks/4th of july

fountains and water parks

bathin' suits!

bff moments

flowers

baseball (kittens are good any time of the year)

bonfires

seashells by the seashore

swimmingg

boys taking their shirts offffffff

cute wayfarers

Beaches!

Summer.

This summer will forever live in infamy.

I've been pretty non-existent this summer as far as my blog goes. I apologize for that. This summer has had quite the roller coaster of events and emotions, and along the way I've developed everlasting relationships that have helped continue to shape me into a better me.

So! Here's a quick recap on things I did, and things I learned about myself:

• I dated Garrett. Who was such a great guy. Smart (very!), funny, sweet, charming... etc. It didn't work out. We just didn't have enough time to spend together, but we're still good friends!
• I dated Joseph. He's dumb. That's all that needs to be said.
• I worked at Glenwood Caverns Adventure Park for the 3rd summer in a row. This mayyyy have been the best summer yet. Probably because it was the longest period of time that I worked there, but also because Melanie came and worked there also. AND because the relationships I had already made in the past grew stronger, and I made even more great friends to have and to hold in the future! Ha.
• I went tubing. Which was pretty epic! Except the last time I went, I almost died. Which was really scary. My parents still don't know about that one. Haha.
• I got put on academic suspension! Ah! I know. It was intense. And frustrating. I was told I failed my internship. I did turn in some things late, but I finished everything and worked really hard. Needless to say, I am no longer on suspension. My grade was changed and I am still returning to BYUI in the fall.
• I was (and still am) in a fantasy baseball league. My team rocks, and I went from being 10th out of 10, to 5th out of 10. Ohhhh yeah. (It's because I have Pujols on my team)
• I decided I'm going to travel as soon as I'm done with my bachelor's. I made a lot of friends from other countries this summer, and it really inspired me to travel. Also, I have a friend named Megan, who is from Liverpool (if you don't know where that is, look it up!) and I told her I would move there. Thennnn from there, I'm going to travel. Wherever I want.
• I thought I was recovering quite well from being a shopaholic. Quite the contrary. I still am one, and I just found a couple new shopping buddies: Ebay and DODtracker.com TROUBLE!
• I got realllllly into these 3 things: stumbleupon.com, tumblr.com, and longboarding. Okay maybe the last one I didn't get reallllly into, but I love it enough to buy a longboard on ebay! 
• I am more than ever excited to finish school. I loved my internship so so much and it made me want to be a therapist that much more! Which is so calming and reassuring and every other positive adjective in this world!
• I really want to move to Colorado.
• I realize more and more I am still learning and growing more into me, no matter what my age is. I will forever be changing. Because that's what life does.
• I do not have a "type". I thought I would normally go for older guys, or sports guys, or whatever. But I fell for an 18 year old (who already had a gf!) who had just graduated from high school. Whoa. I know. (for a while, my nickname at work was "cougar".)
• I have too much stuff. I'm working on selling some of it. Maybe.
• I have an addiction to diet pepsi. I've tried to break that, but I've accepted it, and I'm more at peace with myself now.
• I realllllly want to be healthier. I feel so gross like every day! I hope when I get to school (and maybe get a job!) that I can start buying healthier foods and working out more often.

Overall, summer is/was just amazing. I loved every minute. The good and the bad. I'm a better person for everything that happened this summer. I'm sad it's coming to a close, but I know that the next chapter of my life will be just as good, if not better. :)

Nobody likes you when you're 23...

I think Blink 182 is wrong because so far, being 23 has been amazing. I mean, it's only been 5 days out, but let's be honest--I've pretty much gotten everything I asked for and I got to spend my birthday with a pretty special person (it would've been 2 special persons if Melanie could've come back!).

I know most of you are wondering what I did for my birthday, soooo... I will tell you. :)

I. went to Utah. Provo to be exact. I saw some old friends--Carly. Nate. Javin. Jc. Marcus. Josh. Joel. Brian. Chelsey.

Met some new friends--Mike. Joe. Austin. I think that's it. 

But mostly. I just spent all my time with Joseph. Basically every waking hour. And then some. And right now, he is the cheese to my macaroni. No lie. I miss him a lot and I hope we see each other again soon.

(I'm not really one to divulge information on things like this so if you have questions about it, feel free to email me. But the short of it is I'm kinda crazy about this kid.)

I decided for my birthday that I was going to copy Melanie and post a picture a day on my blog, but I have thus far failed, so I will probably just start it another day. Maybe.

My aunt and uncle are moving. I'm really happy for them, but I really will miss them over the summer because I love them so much. I don't think they know how much, because I'm never at their house (which is in fact where I'm supposed to be staying for the time being), and I really feel pretty bad about it. They mean so much to me, and I don't think they realize what great examples they are to me. or why they are such great examples to me. I hope that up until they leave, that we'll be able to do more things together and grow closer.

I'm going to start reading "The Miracle of Forgiveness" tonight. I hear it's pretty intense. I'm hoping to gain a lot from this book. Wish me luck.

Also. As I progress through my internship, I'm realizing that I lovelovelove therapy more and more, and what exactly I want to specialize in and what kind of atmosphere I want to work in. It's also an on-going battle between whether or not I want to do physical or occupational therapy. Because I actually shadow both. It's kind of a joke, too, with the people I work with every day--they always ask "So what are you leaning towards, today?" Truth is, I really still don't know. But there are a few amazing therapists who have really influenced me so far, and I seriously cannot wait to go to grad school. Let's just hope I get in! Ha.

I'm a little embarrassed...

I kind of had a breakdown the other night, which was followed by a post that I'm not too proud of.. Haha. I'm not crazy I swear, and everything is fine now. Just one of those nights I suppose. And I am a girl, so it's almost to be expected.

My internship is going reallllly well and I'm so so happy about it. I know I made the right decision because I would not be having the same experience anywhere else. The people I shadow/intern for are amazing and they teach me so much. I am working with Physical Therapists AND Occupational Therapists and it's really swaying my decision for school. I still am leaning towards PT, but OT is more and more present in my mind. Which is fine, because either way I still have grad school to consider. It's really incredible work though, and I know this is exactly the career I should be in--therapy. It's beyond phenomenal.

I started working at the Caverns again. So fun. I really have loved that job every year I've worked there. They're so good to me! My boss is even nice enough to let me have the weekend off for my birthday! What an angel. They built a new swing up there and it is huge! Oh my heavens. I can't wait to be able to test it out or whatever. Supposedly it goes almost 180 degrees! Ah!

I miss my friend Melanie and I really want her to come back to the States. I hope she does soon. And maybe she can come to Colorado and live and work with me. We'd have so much fun and she'd still be close to her man.

3 things I really want for my birthday:
1. A Vintage Phoenix Suns Shirt (or a Cardinals Jersey!)
2. A New Hairstyle (I have no idea what though, so any suggestions would be awesome!)
3. All my bills PAID IN FULL (not likely, but hey. A girl can dream!)