real life adult.

what does that even mean? being a real life adult... I feel like it's loaded with a bunch of stereotypical adjectives and expectations. but then again, I'm not really even sure what all those expectations are. I guess I know what other people expect of me, but what do I expect of myself? I've been a college graduate for over a month now, and I still haven't even figured out all that I want to do next. not that I'm in any sort of hurry, I have my whole life ahead of me, but still. it's nice to have some sort of plan, right? I got a job (yay!), so I can cross that off my list. but really, that's all I have figured out. I at least have some ideas (some of which I'm not fully comfortable posting yet) that I'm pretty excited about. most of which involve pinterest. I've been "repinning" craft ideas all freakin summer long, and now that I have time to spare that I don't have to fill with schoolwork, I can finally start working on some of those. at the same time, I'm thinking to myself, "when in the hell am I gonna have time for all of this stuff?". I'm sure I will though. I get bored a lot these days. I also created a movie list (which is sort of MIA at the moment, otherwise I'd share it) of movies I've been wanting to watch for a lonnng time now. off the top of my head I can think of Casablanca but that's a no-brainer... OH. also... I've been toying with the idea of writing a book, and I really think I'm gonna do it. seriously. I dunno what all it's going to be about, and I haven't decided if I will tell you all when I figure it all out, but just cross your fingers and hope that it goes well for me. I'm excited though! it should be interesting, that's for sure... anyway. I guess I'll be busy for a while. I start my new job tomorrow! wish me luck!

trouble sleeping

It's 2:46 am. approximately. most people would be asleep. some people would be playing video games (like my brother). others...well...let's just keep this post PG. As for me, I am blogging. about what I've been doing for the past...3 hours.

We watched Sanctum tonight. have any of you guys seen that movie? OH MAN. let's be honest here. I'm never going caving. again. okay, maybe I will. but not where water is involved. and huge tropical storms. that's some scary stuff. I was on the edge of my seat the whole time. that's not a lie.

Anyway, the movie got over at midnight. SO...since my sleep schedule has been off (being a recent graduate with no job and no boyfriend does not have very many perks--just lots of free time to stay up and sleep late) I decided to waste time on pinterest and tumblr. and check my email. (duh) makes me feel good when people repin or reblog my stuff. that i repinned and reblogged from other people. i also read in my email that they now have candy to cure hangovers. what the ______ (i said i would keep this PG, so insert what you want there)!

When I got bored with that (it happens even with pinterest!), it was time to move to youtube. I have heard some really good stuff lately (thanks to being in a real city) so I wanted to listen and maybe possibly do a little downloading. here's mah lil playlist for your enjoyment:

1. "My Racing Thoughts" -- Jack's Mannequin (new album coming out soon!)
2. "Moves Like Jagger" -- Maroon 5 ft. Christina Aguilera (the music video is fun but christina is still fat.)
3. "She's The Latest One" -- The June Junes (not sure if I love it yet)
4. "Tonight Tonight" -- Hot Chelle Rae (their band name reminds me of myself. admit it--you see it too.)
5. "Friday Is Forever" -- We The Kings (what's with all the friday songs?)
6. "Next To You" -- Chris Brown ft. the Biebster (can't say we didn't see this collaboration coming)
7. "Secret Valentine" -- We The Kings (can't get enough of the ginger-headed lead vocalist!)
8. "Who Owns My Heart" -- Miley Cyrus (yeah. i know. pathetic. but i can't help it!)
9. "What the Hell" -- Avril Lavigne (it's still PG if I type "hell" on here...and yes avril is still awesome)
10. "California King Bed" -- Rihanna (bittersweet i guess..kind of how i feel about wanting a king-size bed)
11. "Smile" -- Avril Lavigne (it's cute. kinda. as cute as her songs get, i guess.)
12. "Who's Laughing Now" -- Jessie J (apparently this song is for her schoolmates who were mean to her)
13. "Let's Go" -- Madi Diaz (this song is fun. and this chick is from nashville. pretty awesome.)
14. "White Nights" -- Oh Land (this chick's voice is just freakin cool)
15. "Best Love Song" -- T-Pain and Chris Brown (yeahhh i know we all know this one. bfd.)
16. "Starlight" -- Muse (if you don't know this song by now, you're an idiot. just sayin.)
17. "My Moon My Man" -- Feist (can't go wrong with feist. plus she dances on a moving walkway.)

So that's it. there were some other ones that i listened to, but they were crap and didn't make the cut. and some of these have been playing on the radio for a while or whatever, but still. they're good and fun enough to waste my sleeping time. i didn't get to download them though. the site was down. HUGE bummer, i know. here's a cute little vid to cheer us up though (warning: you might puke from the adorableness of this clip!):

time for me to copy these felines and get some sleeps. k byeee!

Day 13 sounds dumb.

I really don't want to do day 13. Here's why: A letter to someone who has hurt you recently


No one has really hurt me recently. Not enough for me to write a letter to them anyway. To me, that's kind of a big deal, and I'm one who would rather tell someone to their face than write a letter via the world wide web. I'd rather write them a letter that they'd never see. So I can get allllll my feelings out. Then I'd go talk to them about whatever it was they did to hurt me. So I have no letter for anyone. 


But I will tell you guys about my weekend. :)


I left on Friday for SLC with Mellie, and spent my Friday night with Jake. It was so so good to see him! I missed him so much. We walked to Cafe Rio at like 10 pm (when it closes!) and the sweet lady that worked there let us in even though they were already closed! As always, the pork salad was divine. But afterwards we went back to his place and just talked (and stuff). Spending as much time as possible together since I was leaving the next day and neither of us know when we'll see each other next. It's tragic, I know. (Thank goodness for skype!) We watched this craaazy movie though. I'll spare you the details, but just take my word for it and NEVER see The Human Centipede. Haha. It's terrible. However, do watch Bones as much as possible. Anyway, it was a realllly really great night. We had a lot of fun together. And I miss him. A LOT. :)


Next day, I went with Melanie and some friends to SLC to shop and eat. And so I could catch my flight. I made the mistake of eating Sbarro pizza--I had been craving pizza all week, so I decided to get my fix. Bad choice. It was awful. But I did find some awesome deals at PacSun. Over the summer, I went to one in Denver with Mel, and found this super cute lace tank top. It was kinda pricey and I wanted to get other things instead, so I didn't buy it. And I really regretted it. But we went in there over the weekend and I found the same tank for only 7 bucks! Of course I bought it. And some nail polish. And a ring and some earrings. :) So happy. I also found some film for my fisheye camera at Urban Outfitters. But I didn't buy it. It was really pricey. 18 bucks for 3 rolls of redscale negative. That's pretty much how it ran for all the films, too. So I'm going to shop around a little more. I called my friend Spencer, who is a brilliant photographer by the way, and he gave me advice on it. He is, after all, the one who gave me my first lomo camera. :) He is the best. Seriously. 


So after my adventures at the mall, we headed to the airport. I was so exhausted at this point because of lack of sleep, I kind of had a hard time carrying my luggage around. I figured I would crash on the plane, but noooo.... obnoxious loud kids in every direction. No sleep for me. So I watched one of the greatest shows on earth instead.

But my computer died because the kid next to me just had to charge his itouch. Keep in mind this kid was under 12. And he had a freakin droid. NBD! Ridiculous. Kids today. I swear. 

Anyway, that was my weekend pretty much. Since being home, I've just been spending time with family. Waiting anxiously for my brother's return! :) I can't wait.